HURRICANE RELIEF ESPECIALLY FOR TRENT AND CHARLES X

Yea I know we've been hearing the warnings for months now. But according to them, the official start date for the season was June 1st right? I guess the universe decided I needed an earlier date because I've been dealing with a major hurricane in my life for the past few months. I'm pretty sure it was a Catagory 4 but I wont be able to confirm that until after the recovery and clean up has officially ended. As I mentioned in my previous post, the great news is that the eye of the storm has passed and the sun has been slowly rising which definitly helps with drying up some of the major flooding from the rain.

So yea thats the real reason I've been absent from my blog, my friends, my family, my relationship and most importantly my life for the past few months. I aint even gonna front about how fucked up things got for me. I was so depressed at one point, I strongly considered checking myself into a hospital. At one point, the stress took its toll on my body and I suffered a very scary panic attack in front of some very important people at the most inappropiate time. It was the MOST embarrassing experience of my 10 year career and needless to say I was no where near prepared to deal with the nasty after affects of this ordeal.

In spite of it all, I made it through with a hand full of powerful lessons, most of my sanity and yet another hard reminder that I'm stronger than I thought I was. Another MAJOR factor that inspired me to keep going was when I realized I wasnt the only one who got the early hurricane season memo. If you've been keeping up with the members of my blogroll, you already know that Trent, Heartbreaker, Jamal Franklin (all fellow pisces might I add), No4real4real, Rodney and my child Charles X (and fewothers) are/have all been going through some serious shit. Shoutout to each of you and anybody else in the midst of a difficult time. I want to encourage you to keep your head up and remain grateful each day (even when you dont feel like it) and I promise its gonna get better. You are ALL in my thoughts and prayers especially you Trent and my child Charles X!

Last but not least, I want to share 2 songs that have become my daily anthems because they spoke directly to where I am/have been AND they provided some direction/inspiration which gave me strength not to give up on this crazy thing I call my life. Both songs are by Mary Mary, two PHENOMENAL inspirational sisters with who can both sing MOST of these current R&B chicks under a table including my baby's mother. The first song (my favorite) is titled 'Yesterday' and the second song is 'I Try' PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE Do me a huge favor and listen closely to the lyrics of BOTH songs. Keep ya head up and remember to find ONE thing to be grateful for every single day and say it OUT LOUD! If you cant think of anything, start with the fact that you woke up without the assistance of a machine/tube. Have a wonderful weekend and stay tuned for a very special surprise I'm working on especially for YOU..my blog family!